"It's a bit of a heartbreaker when people you know become people you knew. When you can walk past right someone like they were never a big part of your life. How you used to be able to talk for hours and how now, you can barely look at them."

It's amazing how I agree with everything stated in that quote. it hurts, the truth does hurt. how close you can get to someone. how you thought it'd never change, how you thought it'd always be the damn same. things always change. it's not the fact that you don't try to keep it together. it's not the fact that you're hurting inside. it's the fact that change is normal, and change will always be right around the corner. just gotta live on, accepting what life brings. that's the biggest thing i've learned this year.

you will learn who will be there for you when others aren't. but who will be there when that person is not? i'm gonna step up my game starting now, because now i know how it feels.. i mean.. i will try to keep the friendship between the people who i truly love. truly trust. truly believe.. those who will be there even when i don't necessarily NEED them there.. but the fact that they try to be there.. matters much more than anything else. they deserve my respect.

thinking of how you could know someone so well, for so long. having those countless memories.. and yet you can count the matter of time that changed them on one hand, is sad. it hurts to see that person look past you like you don't even exist. like, they've never met you. like, you're just another face in the crowd.. like, who's to trust these days? it does bother me.. but i guess i should never expect too much out of someone. i don't like to settle for less than what i believe i deserve, but sometimes.. y'just gotta go with the flow.

sorry if i hurt anybody. sorry if i'm the biggest bitch sometimes. that's just what i've become sometimes. i mean, i am scared of getting hurt. i do feel isolated, and i do feel like i lock some people out when it comes to a certain point.. i don't see a change in me though. deep, inside, im still who i am. but sometimes, being around certain people, makes me change into something i'm not. or.. sometimes, the real me.. doesn't show as much. i'm still realizing my mistakes, and sometimes i just wanna start off fresh with certain things. i never wanna let my weaknesses show, but at the end of each day, something still chops my nerves like i'm dying just a bit more each and everyday.

"It's a bit of a heartbreaker when people you know become people you knew. When you can walk past right someone like they were never a big part of your life. How you used to be able to talk for hours and how now, you can barely look at them."

It's amazing how I agree with everything stated in that quote. it hurts, the truth does hurt. how close you can get to someone. how you thought it'd never change, how you thought it'd always be the damn same. things always change. it's not the fact that you don't try to keep it together. it's not the fact that you're hurting inside. it's the fact that change is normal, and change will always be right around the corner. just gotta live on, accepting what life brings. that's the biggest thing i've learned this year.

you will learn who will be there for you when others aren't. but who will be there when that person is not? i'm gonna step up my game starting now, because now i know how it feels.. i mean.. i will try to keep the friendship between the people who i truly love. truly trust. truly believe.. those who will be there even when i don't necessarily NEED them there.. but the fact that they try to be there.. matters much more than anything else. they deserve my respect.

thinking of how you could know someone so well, for so long. having those countless memories.. and yet you can count the matter of time that changed them on one hand, is sad. it hurts to see that person look past you like you don't even exist. like, they've never met you. like, you're just another face in the crowd.. like, who's to trust these days? it does bother me.. but i guess i should never expect too much out of someone. i don't like to settle for less than what i believe i deserve, but sometimes.. y'just gotta go with the flow.

sorry if i hurt anybody. sorry if i'm the biggest bitch sometimes. that's just what i've become sometimes. i mean, i am scared of getting hurt. i do feel isolated, and i do feel like i lock some people out when it comes to a certain point.. i don't see a change in me though. deep, inside, im still who i am. but sometimes, being around certain people, makes me change into something i'm not. or.. sometimes, the real me.. doesn't show as much. i'm still realizing my mistakes, and sometimes i just wanna start off fresh with certain things. i never wanna let my weaknesses show, but at the end of each day, something still chops my nerves like i'm dying just a bit more each and everyday.