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Once you've got everything
you've ever wanted, you've got everything to lose
Feeling Tired, Uninspired - Used & Abused
Tuesday, August 11 / 10:32:00 AM

I always used to fall too fast, and get caught up in every moment- too blinded by a moment of happiness to realize the reality behind the smiles and the lies. But now, it's the opposite. I realize that I'm not even falling at normal speed. I'm falling way too slowly, analyzing every movement. Every step I take, every move you make...

I strongly feel that you just don't have the time for me, or for us. Whenever you're out, chilling with your family or your friends- I'm never a priority. I'm just that girl. I'm never mentioned, and I'm probably never thought about- but, that just isn't it. I hate it, when I feel like you enjoy me on your own time. You only care, because you feel like it- or you want me as an accessory around you neck, attached to your hand, or under your shoulder. But it certainly doesn't work that way. I hate being used. I've been there, and I'm sure you probably have too. But that was our past- and maybe our pasts are one of the reasons why we're still holding on. I'm worried about looking back, and missing what was once mine- but looking forward into the future, is much worse. Highschool, new friends, new people, everything will change, and is that what we really want?

I want you to be something I had, which is wrong. I know it, everyone will eventually see it. But maybe you have it in you, somewhere. Maybe time is the only thing that will bring you out, and also myself- Bring me out of my shell. But, all I've been doing is going with the flow, and I don't know if that's wrong now. I just don't wanna regret. It's harder on my part right now, 'cause even though I'm the one who sits on her ass all day, waiting for you- while you're out with your friends, watching shit, being angry, sleeping, I'm the one who gets hurt at the end of the day. But that's fine- I'll give you a dose of your own medicine, just for now.

Don't cry for boys, let boys cry for you because- Girls give and forgive, but boys get and forget.