Once you've got everything
you've ever wanted, you've got everything to lose
fading
Monday, May 11 / 9:33:00 AM
i woke up to the worst nightmare, it's name is reality.
it had nothing to offer; no hospitality, only fatality.
the tears streamed down my cheeks, like the rain trickled down the window pane,
but it never matched up to internal pain i had to sustain.
i aroused with a bad memory, yet i couldn't hold back the fears;
the fears, that you wouldn't be there to wipe away my tears.
i wanted to scream, and cry some more,
because all those memories have become just another "before".
never thought it would end way it did, my angel left me behind,
it felt impossible for me to find another - my feelings intertwined;
found myself in doubt ; for another to come, bless me with that same vigilance,
because i'm sure nobody would ever run that same distance,
you prepared me for every mountain to climb,
you taught me now that it's my time to shine.
you changed me for the better, yet you changed for the worse-
is it something i really wish to be reversed?
you treat yourself as if your a nobody, but you treated my like royalty,
i learned the hard way, the meaning of true loyalty.
you treated me so well, but now you're starting to fade,
and it's hard for me to cope, cause you i would never trade.
the memories, our firsts, our lasts goodbyes,
it's impossible for me to walk away and not try.
but you're pushing me away, for me to let go of your hand,
and this time... i don't have the right to disobey the commands.
if this is what you really want, just let me be aware,
that this isn't hurting you so myself i could prepare.
prepare for the worst heartbreak - harder than losing you in the past,
hurry, because you're fading outta the contrast.
dmps.
it had nothing to offer; no hospitality, only fatality.
the tears streamed down my cheeks, like the rain trickled down the window pane,
but it never matched up to internal pain i had to sustain.
i aroused with a bad memory, yet i couldn't hold back the fears;
the fears, that you wouldn't be there to wipe away my tears.
i wanted to scream, and cry some more,
because all those memories have become just another "before".
never thought it would end way it did, my angel left me behind,
it felt impossible for me to find another - my feelings intertwined;
found myself in doubt ; for another to come, bless me with that same vigilance,
because i'm sure nobody would ever run that same distance,
you prepared me for every mountain to climb,
you taught me now that it's my time to shine.
you changed me for the better, yet you changed for the worse-
is it something i really wish to be reversed?
you treat yourself as if your a nobody, but you treated my like royalty,
i learned the hard way, the meaning of true loyalty.
you treated me so well, but now you're starting to fade,
and it's hard for me to cope, cause you i would never trade.
the memories, our firsts, our lasts goodbyes,
it's impossible for me to walk away and not try.
but you're pushing me away, for me to let go of your hand,
and this time... i don't have the right to disobey the commands.
if this is what you really want, just let me be aware,
that this isn't hurting you so myself i could prepare.
prepare for the worst heartbreak - harder than losing you in the past,
hurry, because you're fading outta the contrast.
dmps.
