Once you've got everything
you've ever wanted, you've got everything to lose
Thursday, March 26 / 9:25:00 PM
it's been 6 months since you been away,
that's half a year.
i never realized how much it could hurt me..
but everyday just gets harder.
i'm struggling.
i'm trying to grasp onto something i don't have.
i shouldn't even be trying to change things..
there's no use, nothing can be done..
but it's hard, i can't just erase you from my life.
nobody can do that..
but it's hard..
i could last with not communicating with you
for a year.. but now, knowing every single day
that.. that year is extended to forever, kills me inside and out.
that's half a year.
i never realized how much it could hurt me..
but everyday just gets harder.
i'm struggling.
i'm trying to grasp onto something i don't have.
i shouldn't even be trying to change things..
there's no use, nothing can be done..
but it's hard, i can't just erase you from my life.
nobody can do that..
but it's hard..
i could last with not communicating with you
for a year.. but now, knowing every single day
that.. that year is extended to forever, kills me inside and out.
